That 90% of humans are walking around with shot gun wounds in their psyche, like zombies.
They live their lives, repeating the same mistakes, believing the same things matter that actually don’t, and worry about the same problems that in reality don’t deserve the time of day.
They do this because they run away from the things they have problems with; they are afraid of believing something else.
They believe others care about what they do, what kind of people they are, or even what they are wearing, when in reality we are all just extras in everyone else’s movie of their own life; if we die, their life goes on. In fact 99.99999999% of the planet won’t even know you when you die.
Very few people see the world for what it really is; that nobody really gives a care about you in the long term; they simply can’t. And when they think they do, do they really even know you? The real you? You are more alone than most people think, you are stuck in your own little world, amassing your own success, chalking up points to what will soon be dust, getting offended by words, pretending people hate you or think about you when they really don’t, getting upset when someone cuts you off, worrying about winning a lottery or the size of your genitals, and all the while you can’t do anything to stop your forced march into the permanent abyss.
The truth is, you’re just visiting this spinning rock in a vacuum, with no life for at least trillions of miles besides here, and you’re not taking anything with you when you go. Making others lives better, including your own, is the only way you will ever matter in any positive way for any amount of time to anyone.
…and that this bleak belief system is actually really awesome and happy, perhaps the coolest thing anyone could ever realize, because it gives you the only real purpose you have; to make things better, for everyone, just because it’s the only thing that matters, not because God says, or because someone is watching, or to prove your self worth because your parents didn’t love you enough, but just because it’s “right”, and right being that it both feels that way when we think about it, and after we do it, and brings us joy and elation.
Thats the one change you can make that lasts forever; just doing “good” as in doing something besides causing suffering; it adds up and we all feel it, even though we may not know your name, what you looked like, or what your favorite song was… what you did mattered; your life mattered and will matter to all the life that is to come, and that’s enough. In fact that’s all it ever can be. Yet almost everyone is afraid to even think about life in terms like that, to let go of the illusions we think matter so much, even though we all seem to already know it’s true.
Nick Steele